For those who don't know me I consider myself a fairly creative person, or at least I used to be. I used to paint, take pictures, draw, write songs and poems, play guitar, create journals, and I even made beaded jewelry at one time. The reason I say "used to" is because for the past 1 1/2 to 2 years I seem to have lost my creative drive or at the very least the time to pursue my creative drive.
The problem with this is that I have always considered my creativity a huge part of my life. Almost like an emotionally cathartic release that is needed. When something is as important to your well being as this seems to be for me, to not have it for so long, not only seems odd, but almost like a part of me is missing. Like I've lost part of who I used to be.
Now being a mom of a two year old it's pretty easy to see where I might not have time to do these things I used to. But it would be so easy to blame it on a full time job outside the home and being a full time mother inside the home. Yet the truth is, if I really wanted to I would find the time to be creative, to pursue my creative outlets, I would make the time. I make time to do other things. Yet time seems to always pass me by. I always say "oh I'll start that tomorrow", or "I'll get out my guitar this weekend.", but it just never happens. To be perfectly honest, when I do have a few moments to myself lately all I want to do is numb my brain and zone out with mindless t.v. or just do something that doesn't require thinking.
So....will I ever be creative again? This blog seems to be a start, but I guess I'll have to wait to see if zoning out has become more important to me than creativity. I would hate to think that part of me is gone forever. There still feels like there is so much more inside me to express. Unfortunately all I can express right now is how exhausted I am. So I'm going to leave this topic open for now.
So, if anyone is reading this, I am curious to hear: How important is a creative outlet to you? Do you think it's important for everyone to have one? Why?
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